Will talks about: jojo's bizarre adventure part 5: vento aureo

Something tells me this is going to be a thing where i'm going to update this clinging on life support of a blog site of mine out of some necessity that isn't just "oh i was bored" once a year. Well that's what i thought at first, but i have talked about it before where i'd like to try out making reviews on here instead, and hopefully try doing it often this time. So how about it, let's talk about the 5th part of jojo's bizarre adventure: vento aureo.

Vento aureo has been something i wanted to talk about for some time after i was done reading all 17 volumes and 155 chapters of it and i'll just come right out and say it: part 5 of jojo is very flawed, but at it's best it's just okay.

Before i go on with the review, i wanna go into the manga's history and significance within the JJBA community just so we're all up to speed with everything and also i just like to make myself feel smart for once in my life.

Up until now, vento aureo has divided the jojo fanbase for a long time now, not because of the manga itself, but most likely because of one thing: the manga scanlations. Jojo is notoriously known for many things one can't count on a single hand alone, one of them is it's awful, yet laughably bad and sometimes meme worthy manga fan translations, just ask diamond is unbreakable.

As for vento aureo, it's not nearly as amateurish as DiU (or "DUWANG" as the fans would say), but the quality is still really poor. Much like DiU, however, vento aureo was translated into english from a chinese translation which was also was a translation of the original japanese release. Yeah, it's inspection levels of sloppy-ness. What makes vento's case worse however is that, while DiU bad scans make for an entertaining read because of how bad it is, vento's scans were not just the only scans of it available at the time, but it also hindered the part's overall storytelling quality. Characters are rendered as dull and uninteresting and the stands themselves were made to be overly more complicated than they needed to be (especially one in particular that i'll touch upon later). Thankfully those days are over and done with and the jojo manga now has seen far better days.

Anyways as usual, i've rambled on for a bit, so let's dive right into part 5 vento aureo.

Part 5 takes place in italy in the year 2001 and follows 15 year old giorno giovanna and his quest to join and later become the boss of the well known and influential mafia group passione. Eventually giorno joins a small group that's part of passione led by the ruthless, yet kind hearted bruno buccialati who shares the same ideals as giorno in wanting to make their town a safer place by getting rid of any and all corruption, even going as far as to take down passione's powerful, yet extremely secretive boss diavolo.

                         

So vento aureo takes on a more different formula, once again, in jojo, where's as the series would focus on adventurers or high schoolers taking larger than life supernatural forces, this time it's all about the mafia. It's gangsters fighting other gangsters, but with stands this time and i have to say, part 5 has some incredible stands. Giorno's gold experience brings life to inanimate objects, buccialati's sticky fingers can make zippers on anything including himself. There's others like metallica, beach boy, little feet, white album, moody blues, and the stand that just works, king crimson. Hirohiko araki never ceases to create some incredible stands which, in term, make for some interesting fights. Speaking of which, vento aureo is known for being very action heavy, there's hardly a moment where there's breathing room and the main gang are constantly thrown into dangerous and damn near hectic fight scenes. As fun and engaging as the fight scenes are, it actually leads to my first problem with part 5. Because of the constant fights, we usually don't have enough time for the characters to fully develop and be fleshed out in my personal opinion. Especially someone like pannacotta fugo who find just doesn't seem to stand out that much to me compared to everyone else in buccialati's group. Narancia's a lovable foul mouthed dork, mista's laid back personality and his fear over the number 4 makes him an enjoyable character, plus he's good with a gun. Abbacchio i don't care much for as a person, but i'll give him some slack for having a sympathetic backstory and also having moody blues for a stand. Finally buccialati is just a great guy, despite his kind heart takes his role as a gangster seriously and is willing to commit brutal acts of violence even if it means doing what he thinks is right.

I left giorno for last because i want to take the time to talk about how i feel about him overall. Giorno is often

regarded as being the weakest, sometimes even the worst, main jojo and after reading part 5 i can see why people would think that. My biggest problem  with giorno is that he's way too static for a main protagonist, there are times throughout the whole manga where he just doesn't seem interesting as a character and feels even bland at times. He doesn't even develope as a character either, he's no different from when he started out in the beginning to how he is at the end except he became a lot stronger than before. So is it true that he's the worst jojo? Maybe, but to me, wouldn't write him off as being unlikeable because he definitely isn't. He has a strong resolve, is really smart and has shown to make quick decisions despite the situations he's in, plus the guy's fashionable as hell.

              Next is what i consider the worst, most disappointing part of vento aureo, it's main antagonist and passione's boss diavolo. This guy is honestly, without a shadow of a doubt, the worst main villain in all of jojo's bizarre adventure, but first let's get the two good things about him out of the way real quick. This guy has one of the series most powerful stands, king crimson. It has the power to erase up to 10 seconds of time and predict upcoming events within those 10 seconds. Going back to the scans for a moment, king crimson's complex power was made 10x more convoluted and confusing in the aforementioned scans which led to people throwing their arms up in the air and proclaiming that it just works. Again, those days are long gone and king crimson's powers are a bit more easier to understand now. The last thing that's diavolo's most interesting aspect about him is his split personality, doppio vinegar. A meek and lanky looking teenager who's diavolo's under boss. So incase you didn't realized it yet, diavolo's split personality disorder is so severe and fucked up he also changes his physical appearance as well. As insane as that is, that leads into the biggest issue with diavolo: nothing about him is explained.
See, despite having a backstory, so much of diavolo, from his actions to his past are shrouded in mystery and riddled with nonsense. As mentioned earlier, diavolo is a secretive individual, making for damn sure no one knows who he is, even going as far as to kill his daughter and sever his only bloodline to make it seem like he never existed. He'd also would take about the past and how "In order to grow, we must defeat the mistakes of our past". Yet it's never made clear why he does most of all the thing he's done. What i love about the main jojo villains is that, no matter how despicable they are, they have an understandable reason for why they do the things they do. Dio, for as cartoonishly evil as he can be, strives for power, but his beginnings in part 1 make this more clearer, kira is a methodical serial killer and fetishist who can't help that he has these urges of his, enrico pucci and funny valentine both think they're doing the right thing despite the terrible things they do. Diavolo has none of this, he has as much reasoning as a shitty minor villain from anywhere in jojo, that's not a good thing at all for a main villain to be. The whole thing is never explained either, because of how bad his disorder is, it would mean that diavolo suffered some sort of abuse or trauma growing up, but unsurprisingly, that too never gets explained. The most that we got was that diavolo was born in a female prison and was sent to live with a priest on his mom's home island. The priest that he lived with seemed like a nice guy so how and why diavolo is so bonkers, well, the world may never know.

What makes all this worse is that by the time we learn about diavolo, part 5's almost over! The whole manga makes him out to be this mysterious and haunting individual, but he isn't fully revealed until close to the end, which is why i find diavolo's presence just incredibly underwhelming. Then there's his death, which is the most unnecessary fate i've ever seen a character like diavolo to receive. After getting his ass handed to him by giorno and his newly upgraded gold experience requiem, diavolo is forced to live an endless cycle of death; being brought back to life and to die again, over and over again. Let me explain why he doesn't deserve this fate all.

Earlier in his life, he tortured and possibly mutilated his own mom and burned down the village he was living when he was 19. Then around the time he formed passione, they pretended they were fighting against the drug trade, but were actually aiding it behind the scenes. While we can't be sure about what he has directly and indirectly caused during and before the start of part 5, it's easy to say that he's a bad person, but he doesn't deserve something this extreme simply because it's so unnecessary and total overkill too.

I'm sorry for going off on diavolo, i just feel really strongly about this character that i had to say what i need to and yes, i know i said that this was a review, but i always ramble on when going on a specific topic. Plus, i never said this was going to be a traditional style review anyways.

So bottom line, would i recommend jojo part 5 vento aureo? Yes i would. Here's the thing, despite my complaints, i don't consider part 5 to be the worst part, i don't believe there's such a thing as a bad part in all of jojo's bizarre adventure. Yes there are many problems that plague the story, but at least it's never too boring and still retains a good fun factor from the insane fights. Also as a bonus, part 5 gives a more indepth look at how the arrows came to be which is one of the more intriguing moments in the whole manga. Anyways, i'm done, go read some jojo, especially this one, just make sure the scans you find aren't duwang quality.

Thomas yohn is trash, that's all.

Has it really been close to a year since my last blog post? Well shit.

For the small few that literally read these, i've been very inactive from writing blogs, not because i was busy with real life, i was just really lazy and i was running low on ideas on what to write about. I have stated before that i'm going to go back to writing reviews for tv shows, anime, and movies and i still going to try and write one, but that'll have to take a lot of brainstorming and just something i should feel very passionate about something i'd like to talk about, positive or not. For now though, let's take a jab at a news article that just plains irritates the piss out of me.

It's a couple of days old, i know, but after hearing more about this earlier today thanks to a video made by reviewtechusa, i feel that this is something that deserves a good and simple old rant on.

So a west virginia middle school teacher named thomas yohn (pictured above) was caught by a student for doing something that literally was not safe for work. If you're wondering, yes he was, he was watching porn on a school computer. Never mind how if it's actually possible to look up naughty stuff on a school restricted computer, the student, jeffery province walked in on yohn simply because he arrived early to his class, saw what the teacher was doing and said he would him to the principal.

Now, obviously yohn is an adult and as one, you would think he would react rationally to this situation right? Negative. Later that day he barged into province's english class and THREATENED him. What did he have to say?

“Next time you open your big, stinking mouth, pal, I will write you up and send you to the office for coming into my room without permission,” Yohn says. “Is that clear?”

“What I watch as an adult is my choice,” the teacher continues. “You as a child wait in the hall until you’re invited into my room — is that clear?”

“He said, ‘I’m going to get an A this quarter, or I am going to tell that you are watching inappropriate things on TV and I saw it,'” Yohn said.

“So go ahead, tell — isn’t that what I told you to do?” he continued. “Now I’m telling you, you keep your big flap shut. Because I’m a grownup and I can watch what I want, and if you ever set foot into my room without permission again it’ll be the last time you step in my room — is that clear?”

I believe nash said it best when he said,"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!"

For fucks sake man, what is your damage?! First off, why are you, as a teacher, watching porn at a middle school? What kind of sick and sleazy freak would think that this would be a good idea? If you wanted to look up naughty bits that badly, wait until you get home so you can freely give yourself a hand! Don't do it at a place where there are kids present you freak!

Secondly, why the fuck are you surprised that someone would rat you out for doing this? You could  literally get fired for this, so why the fuck are you raging at a young teen for doing something rational?

Third, as an adult you can do whatever you want? In this context alone, get over yourself, if you were an adult, you know someone who would be old enough to to know what is right and what is wrong, someone who would and should be smart enough to think for themselves, you would of done none of these things! You wouldn't of threatened a kid for doing the right thing and you sure as rotten hell wouldn't of thought twice about looking up kinky shit at a fucking school! There should be no reason for you to try and justify your actions at all,so why fucking bother?

During this brain melting tirade, he even claims that province blackmailed him into getting him a good grade, which the boy denied. Oh but wait! It. Gets. WORSE. After this all blew over, province stated that he stayed at home and didn't return to school, why? Because he would think that yohn would be still be there and is scared that he might actually hurt him.

So all i have to ask is this, why in every single region of hell is thomas yohn a teacher? Other than being brainless horn dog, the guy is clearly not right in the head. The fact that he was watching porn at a place where kids go to learn, but flat out threatened to do god knows what to a young boy for simply doing the right thing, it's clearer than crystal that this guy is not fit to be a teacher at all. The fact that someone this fucked in the head, this completely irrational and stupid is teaching pre-teens is unsettling and all i can hope that he gets canned for doing all this. Granted, he has been suspended as of now, but that is not enough, it's not satisfying enough. While this isn't the worst and most heinous thing i've seen and heard a teacher, or any other adult do, it goes without saying that yohn should not be anywhere near children or teens at all.

Full story and video of incident here:
http://www.rawstory.com/2016/04/watch-math-teacher-goes-bonkers-after-student-reports-him-for-watching-prn-in-class/ 

Let's talk about queensryche

Been a long time since i wrote something on here. I've been wanting to write another blog for a while, but on what has been the issue here. So many ideas came and went (some i'll talk about at some point in the future), but i have one that came to me last night: queensryche. I decided to go back and listen to these guys for the first time in over a year. I've only listened to their first several albums and left it at that, but it wasn't until the band overall history and all the turmoil they've went through is what intrigued me and made me want to talk about these guys and my word there's so much to talk about in regards to this band, but let's start from the very beginning.

Keep in mind for any fans of queensryche that by some stroke of dumb, rare luck find this blog and respond with anything i say about this band with a "no shit mate", this is all coming form a guy that has just started to sit down and listen to a lot of their material and learn about their doings from up until now. I'm no long time fan, nor even a casual fan, though my overall opinion will pop up at some point in this blog. So yeah, back off bro.

Before there were hispters infecting any coffee shop around a way before grunge wasn't even a concept, there were a little band from seattle, washington known at first as the mob. Changing their name to queensreich and then to ryche to avoid anything involvement with them crazy nazis. They mad e their debut with a 4 track ep that displayed classic, fast paced early power metal and for it was, it was a good, short listen. A year later and they made a big surprised for a lot people with their first full length album "the warning". A shift in musical change is evident with what would be their most known sound: mid paced riffs and progressive arrangements. Both that and their follow up, "rage for order", sold well and were welcomed with good reception. and then operation:mindcrime happened.

Among the many things that happened to queensryche (good or bad) was the release of their 4th album OM and it quickly cemented their popularity. The album that is seen as one of the text book examples of a concept album and one done incredibly well. A story involving a drug addict getting pulled into a life of political and social corruption and hypocrisy featuring snippets of people acting out parts of the story as the very characters from said story, back up with amazing musicianship and geoff tate's (then) powerful singing make this and all around great album.

Their career continued to march on with their follow up "empires" which featured many popular songs like jet city woman and best i can, as well as probably their biggest hit silent lucidity. 4 years later after taking some time off and promised land came out and it was then that queensryche's career started to wane a bit, like other metal and hard rock bands at that time, due to the popularity of alternative rock and also grunge which ironically mostly came straight from the band's home state. It Seemed to have affected the bands music with the release of the oddly titled "hear in the now frontier" which a lot of people reacted appropriately with "what". Gone were the complex and powerful arrangements and singing and what's present on it is stripped down alternative/hard rock and sadly, it stayed like that throughout the bands whole career.

At this point i'll just jump in and give my take on all this. From what i'm looking at, 1997 can be seen as the year queensryche stopped being a good band, turned into a mediocre band, and then slowly descended into a godawful band. the latter though, i'll save for a bit later. Back in the 80s, queensryche, along with other bands like dream theater, fates warning, crimson glory, lethal, and so forth created and popularized progressive metal in it's heyday. They took metal and fused it with the complexity and dexterity of prog rock and they all made some genuinely good and memorable tunes and queensryche were very well known for this. For a lot of long running bands, it's common for them to change their sound mostly to avoid sounding too redundant and possibly try something different for once in their career, release a few or several duds along the way and with queensryche it's no different, but it's so much worse here.

I'll be nice and say that while albums like now frontier, q2k, tribe, and, to an extent, operation:mindcrime 2, they were weak albums, but had some okay moments despite being dull and derivative rock albums, american soldier and dedicated to chaos, however, are insultingly bad. Long time listeners of the band would obviously know this, but i was almost stunned at how terrible these two were. I won't go into too much depth and detail, but the most i'll say about these two grime covered puke stains is this, first off american soldier. If i was a veteran soldier that has fought for my country and this album was made about those like me, i'd sooner blow my brains out before PTSD kicked in and added insult to injury, also tate's daughter can not sing for shit. Dedicated to chaos, it's the kind of banal and forgettable rock music that makes guys like nickleback look like UFO.

So what was it that made these guys so bad? Several factors, the first one is the departure of founding member and guitarist chris degarmo in 1998 and then there was tate's continued "experimentation" that at first caused the band to suffer. Tate seemed to have been most of the reasons why the band has went through so much hell for the last 10 or so years with the inclusion of having his wife be the band's manager and the rest of band claiming that they no longer had a voice of their own and that tate and his wife were the ones controlling how the band should do things, regardless of what they had to say. That and tate's voice no longer being as good as it used to be, hence why the shift from prog metal to alternative/hard rock. A case of megalomaniacal behavior i suppose. It got a lot sour when the rest of the band not only fired tate's wife from management, but also his daughter from the group's own fanclub all without tate's knowing, you can imagine it not being a lush and pretty sight caught wind of it during an event at sao paolo, although in tate's defense, the band doing all this without his knowledge or consent is a very scumbag-y thing to do sp in this case, they weren't that much better. Seriously, when you have an incident this bad that it has it's own separate wikipedia article, you know it's going to be a break up worthy of being on a rolling stones top ten list, oh wait, it did.

This was an issue that resulted in the band having to go to court over all this, tate, out of bitterness and just being pissy about getting the boot, formed his own band with several other musicians and if that weren't enough, called his band queensryche (both he and the remaining QR members were given permission to use both names for the time being) and released their first album called "frequency unknown". In case you missed it, frequency unknown has the abbreviations F U. Apparently tate is actually a pissed off 14 year old trapped in a grown man's body, though that also would explain some of the incredibly questionable musical choices he's made (seriously a hip hop opener for american soldier?!).

Here's my thing, personally, i think the band should of broken up sooner or have gone on another hiatus. Had they done either one of these, they probably wouldn't of gone through the amount of shit they had to go through right now. A lot of people would consider them one of the greatest metal bands of all time, and while i see where they're coming from and as much as i do respect the band for doing some great stuff in the past, to me, they would of been so much better if the second half of their catalog never existed. Tate also show of left the band by his own accord instead of dragging them through the mud rather than just be seen as a great singer turned douche nozzle. I'll still listen to their old albums and, as i write this, their new album with todd la torre is pretty decent so far so i there's some ray of sunshine on this bands current status.

Big star

Let's talk about big star baby.

Yes big star, often considered, along the likes of the velvet underground and grateful dead, the quintessential cult band. A band that came close to stardom (he he get it?), but for one reason or another, things never worked out for them and everything just fell apart before the 80s showed it's tacky and bright and colorful head.

With just seeing the documentary "nothing can hurt me", which tells about the bands whole career from the 60s up until their second break up in 2010, i thought i'd grab chance by the balls and talk about the little band that could. That and fanboy out for god knows how many paragraphs.

I debated with myself (and continued to do as of writing this) whether or not i should go through with this blog and if i did, how am i going to make it seem so important and make anyone want to read it? Over the years, i have always gone out of my way to give recommendations to anyone i meet; tv shows, anime, movies, music artists, whether they're well known or obscure i always find time to talk about them and hope that anyone listens and gives them a try. So why not do that with big star? Even with as big (damn you unintentional puns!) as they are now, i still feel like not a whole lot of people know about these guys so i feel it's my unofficial job to help spread the word of big star.

Starting off here with one simple question: what makes big star such a damn good band? Let's take a step back in time to when the british invade america.........with music. When bands like the beatle, the yardbirds, the kinks and so forth appeared, so many people wanted to be like them, which sparked the idea for several teenage boys to buy (or beg their parents in this case) their own musical instruments and replicate the same sound that those bands did. One of these bands were the boxtops, fronted by a then 16 year old alex chilton. Before big star was ever conceived, alex sang for this wee little blue eyed soul group and soon they took off with the song "the letter" which sold millions. Chilton soon left the group and then offered chris bell to start their own simon and garfunkel type of duo group. While bell turned down the offer, he asked chilton to join his own band, icewater (who would then change their name to big star) and, as they say, the rest was history.

Though the name big star came from a local grocery store in the memphis area, when you think about it (this was also something that was mentioned in the documentary by one of the band members whose name i sadly can't remember), calling your band big star, as well as naming your debut album "#1 record" was something that came off sounding egotistical, but also in worst case, ironic, and in the latter's case, it's something that can be almost scary, if not somewhat funny for the wrong reasons.

Well those fears were surely all but vanished (temporarily i'm sure) since #1 record garnered critical acclaim. However, and this is where the problem with big star's career, the album sold poorly due to lack of promoting and distribution. Not helping that bell started to feel that he was being ignored by the critics and was feeling left out even though, out of everyone that worked on #1 record, he poured the most care and attention into the production. So yeah something like that can put a sour feel on someone like bell and for that, he eventually left the band.

From '72 until '78, it was nothing big star struggling with fame and getting some respect. Well they still did from the likes of rolling stone loving the hell out of them, but despite that, they still felt like they were being ignore and all that bitterness and sour turmoil was soon poured into the bands third and final studio album, third (aka sister lovers). And thus, big star was no more.........until 1993 where chilton, along with drummer jody stephans, gathered up members from the posies to resurrect a new big star that lasted until 2010 where they did several live events and only made one album (never heard it but from what i heard, wasn't all that great).

And that's the long and short of it. I didn't intend to go off on a history lesson about big star so i tried to provide the cliff notes version of it. Plus, if there was anything i might of left out, the best i can say just do a simple google search or go and watch the documentary, which i implore you do by the way. Anyways, going back to a question i asked earlier, and also derailed from, and that was what made this band this good?

Musically speaking, big star played a style of music called power pop. Power pop took the melodies and light hearted hooks of british guitar pop bands and combined it with the crunch and swagger of american hard rock. Other bands like badfinger and the raspberries are, along with big star, were known for popularizing and pioneering the genre during the 70s, but what made big star stood out from other bands during the early 70s, to me at least, was not only the kind of music they played, but their lyrics were incredibly personal.

While their music was hard rocking, while still somewhat melodic, most of their songs had a feeling of melancholy to them. On #1 record and their second album, radio city, it was apparent, and then third happened. I mentioned how all the turmoil the band felt was put into third, well it was, both musically and lyrically. Unlike the last two albums which were crunchy, but sweet, third is that, but more abrasive and dissonant and their lyrics were more depressing and sorrowful (one song on there, holocaust, is pretty much the equivalent of a modern day emo/screamo song except it's legitimately sad and tragic rather than whiny and obnoxious). Third can best be described as the soundtrack to a band falling apart or a man having a mental breakdown. All these factors make this easily one of the most bleakest albums ever recorded.

Now that i think about it, with what i've mentioned and talked about, big star's history is kinda sad. Let me explain, the band has gone through hell to get some recognition and, while the critics liked them, their record label, including their own manager possibly, never gave too much of a crap to give them enough attention, therefor, they were commercially unsuccessful and this put an emotional toll on both bell and chilton who were both the driving force behind big star as it. As silly as this may sound, this almost paints a tale of woe for the band. I'd say tragedy, but that be pushing it.

Even with all that said, there's still an upside. While they gained far more acclaim and recognition over the next 20 year, they're considered one of the most influential bands of all time. Big star has shown to be a huge influence on not just future power pop bands, but for alternative rock in general. Ask anyone from R.E.M., the flaming lips, meat puppets, yo la tengo, matthew sweet, robyn hitchcock, you name it, who influenced them so much, most often then not, they'll be point directly at big star.

It's always a shame when something makes it's debut and no one is there to even give a shit, only then people start to notice it a whole several odd years later. I guess that it's positive that at least people begin to notice it later as oppose to never. Big star's history is bittersweet at best, but at least the remaining band members and those that have worked or are close to the band can feel assured that big star is, well, big now. Bell and chilton will never know this since, sadly, they have both passed on with bell, passed away back '78, never knowing how popular big star would be in the future. As said, everything about big star is bittersweet, both in music, writing, and in history. It's tough, but they at least found some way, maybe out of pure luck, to become, again, big.

Yes it was intentional.

Why i stopped playing team fortress 2

Several weeks back, i once made a post on facebook about getting angry at video games. during that i mentioned that there are games that make me mad, even though i really like them, and one of the ones i mentioned is team fortress 2. For those that aren't video game savvy, team fortress 2 is a team based online first person where 2 teams, consisting of 9 classes , fight one another in different types of matches. Though simple sounding, the game is known for it's balanced gameplay and weapon system, goofy and tongue and cheek sense of humor, and chaotic and over the top fights. The game has struggled to stay afloat up until now, having being 8 years old right now, and has now since garnered aspects of it that's easy to ridicule (people caring about dressing up their classes, most of the community consisting of stupid, gullible kids and condescending douchebags among other things), the game itself is a lot of fun to play.

It's also the only game i've played that has pissed me off the most.

There are a lot of games out there, all with various levels of difficulty. There are those that are laughably easy, some that have that balance of being challenging, but fair, and then there the kind of games that make you want to burn your whole house down. TF2 is different because how the game plays out how well you play the game as well as how good the people are when you are up against them. It depends since this can be random at times, one minute you'll have a good ol' time. Then you quickly notice that the opposing team is a whole lot better than you and you have no choice but to either try your damn best and play against or continuously get your ass served to you by these better players, over and over and over again.

I get that anyone that reads this either has never played TF2 or even have never heard of it up until now, but hear me out with this.

There are video game obsessions i get every now and then, a game that i would play almost every day because i love it that much, the last game i played constantly before TF2 was borderlands. It was no different with TF2, except i was playing it EVERYDAY, i'd say up to roughly 10 hours, i was completely into the game that much. While i had times where i would have a blast playing the game, trying out different weapon load outs for my classes, getting a lot of kills, and so forth, i would also have times where i start the game feeling good and end the game feeling drained and fucking miserable. I would have times where i would say to myself, "why the fuck do i play this fucking game?" This game has made me feel emotions, made me conjure up thoughts, that no game has made me feel before. Cursing, harsh name calling, pounding on my chair, you name it. Most games had me feeling frustrated, this brought out my inner hulk.

Now on the flip side however, despite all that i have mentioned even with all that in mind, i never went into the chat or voice call to do all this. I never turned on my mic just to rage endlessly nor insult ones personal being mostly because their were better at the game then i was. Even at my most negative state, i still remained almost rational and logical. Almost.

At this point you'd think that maybe this game wasn't meant for me if it made me feel this badly, and while you're not wrong for thinking that, i have said that i like this game and i have had fun playing. Yet because i was wasting way too much time playing this game, ignoring all the other games i have in my whole collection (and not doing anything much else productive, yeah), all for a game that has given me mixed feelings at best and horrible ones at worst is why i stopped playing this game.

Rest assured, i don't see myself as the type of person to get mad at a video game and stay mad at a video game. I don't try to take them so seriously, i mellow out and get over them quickly. I can also acknowledge times where i completely fuck up and have gotten myself killed. Yet the fact that i play this game so damn much and, at times, have made me feel that badly after a while, shows that i can't keep going on feeling like this. I really do feel ashamed that come off like that guy when i don't want to. It also doesn't help that this is all about a game that have so many things about that i really do like, but god damn, this game tends to bring out the worst in me, sometimes when it tries not to.

I just started this blog of mine recently and this is already my most personal one so far and i don't expect a lot of people to see how i feel as i am typing all this out. Just see it as a guy venting, letting off all that frustration, a guy with his own issues pretty much.

Whelp, time to go off and find my newest obsession.

*EDIT 5/10/2015*

So almost a week after i posted this, i decided to go back and re-install TF2 cause even with all the frustration and crap it mad me feel in the worst of times, i still had fun playing it, going through the various types of weapons and trying out different loadouts for each of my classes and all that stuff. So with my 6 day long vacation from TF2 out of the way, i was welcomed back with most of the same. Yeah i did get mad, but never violently enraged and i tried to play the game as less as possible.

So why am i writing this now? Well last night when i was having another go at the game i did the one thing i tried not to do no matter how upset i go while playing. I talked about before how not matter what, i tried to act rationally and not go into the chat or turn my microphone to go on a vile, insult spouting hate speech for everyone in the server to see/hear. I tried my damn best to never do that no matter how bad the game was going and i couldn't handle it. I broke that self made rule of mine last night.

Yes, i was so enraged that i turned on my mic and what came out of me made me sound like one of satans minions suffering from a bad bowel movement. I never turn my mic on during times like this cause it'll make me look like a joke afterwords. The fact that i did is one of the biggest mistakes i have ever made.

For that, i've thought about it and i realize that something like TF2 just isn't for me (took a long time to figure that one out, i know). As stated, i tend to see myself as a fairly mellow person and while i have gotten mad at video games, i've never gotten visibly shaken and fist pounding enraged before. Take that however you can about me if you think i'm some has been that takes games too seriously or not, whatever. At this point, this shouldn't be a thing that i don't want to go through ever again and yes, i uninstalled TF2, again, and i hope this lasts longer than a week.

I don't want to try and, unintentionally or not, repeat anything else i might state or even repeat the same asinine mistake over and over again. To put it so, if a game like TF2 makes me feel this horribly, then it's a game i should just avoid. I don't regret downloading and playing the game since there's so much about it i really like, i just regret not dealing with this more maturely then i should of.

Oh and happy mothers day.

A blog about corey nichols (and also certain religious folk kinda suck)

Yeah i couldn't think of a good title so shush.

I've thought about what would be my first actual post, that wasn't just the introduction, on my new blog for sometime. The one i chose was something i shared on facebook very recently ago and i thought i'd expand upon it some more. As you can tell from the title, it's about how corey nichols, a gay teen, was tossed out by his birth family and was recently adopted by a much better family. This was a story that filled me with two emotions: joy and malice. joy because corey found love and comfort in a group of people that he can now call a family and malice because his birth family are worse than dried up bear dung.

It should come to no surprise that religion, like any massive group/community, has its fair share of illogical nut jobs and to say that corey's birth family pretty much fit into that category of shitting bats crazy is a big fat "duh". Especially when corey's waste of space of a father says that not only were gay people sin itself, but flat out threatened to kill any gay individual that set foot into his house. More often than not, i can't help but wonder when these "followers" of the all mighty big guy in the sky read the bible they claim they get their teachings from, they ever stop and wonder if these teachings might actually be completely out of date by today's standards and are rendered null and void by now. Sadly, that would imply that they use more than a small fraction of their brain capacity that isn't "hate anyone that's different, cause god hates people that are different", last i checked, the bible never made mention of that. Speaking of which, i need to side track for a moment to say this: christians, if you're getting your teachings from the OLD testament and not the NEW testament, then there's your problem right there, but i digress.

It's one thing to hate someone for their sexuality, it's 5x worse when that person is your own child. When you've reached the point that you're not just a bonkers bible humper, but your close minded-ness cause you to kick your gay son out of your life because you can't accept that your kid isn't a brainwashed fuck like you, not only are you not fit to be a parent, but you have no right to call yourself a christian. Any decent minded christian would tell you that hating someone for their race, sexuality, beliefs, etc. is a massive no-no and makes baby jesus sad. Of course when an overly religious fruit loop is given logical reasoning and common sense, they instantly stick their fingers in their ears and go, "la la la la la la" as if they're above any of that and that they're right.

I noticed that at this point i gone off onto a tangent about crazy religious individuals, but it's still one of the main factors that play into this story. Corey was driven away by his own family all because he likes guys and they can't comprehend this. not even his own siblings, hailey and james, helped him out here, in fact, they're just as stupid and hateful as the same people that brainwashed them into thinking something this rancid, aka they're parents. Right after corey was adopted, they [his blood related siblings], along with their mom at one point, came forth with comments that make them worse than how they actually look. Such words of wisdom like:

"For all you that read my brothers little pity story on here, it’s a joke and I’m honestly in shock someone has enough nerve to lie about shit like that. Yes some is true but the major key points are false. If anyone has a problem come to me my brother is a fake and a coward. He has the power to manipulate a person better then anyone I know."

"They knew exactly what they were doing. Funny how Corey’s “story” was published the day after gay marriage becomes legal in some parts of MI."

"Exactly fucking homos. You know why every homo is successful. Because they our selfish and all they care about is themselves."

"I cant believe it myself, we never kicked corey out, he left. he was in no danger from his dad, he would never hurt corey, he just don’t believe in gays he don’t support it, he has his beliefs."

And the funniest one for me:

"Karma is a bitch and it’s coming his way."

Now that your brain hasn't melted into a pile of ooze and you haven't set something on fire in fit of toxic rage, allow me to put this incredibly bluntly about corey's "family", they're all retards.

Shocker there, i know, but it's almost hard for me to dissect each of these comments without me mindlessly insulting their very intelligence, or lack thereof, but i seem to have already did that more than once so once the use of doing so? Plus, when i first read the story and got before this part of it, i almost half expected hailey and james to be, at the very least, slightly smarter than their parents. NOPE. Turns out that corey is the only one that isn't a hateful mouth breather.

This also plays into another big problem with society: when ignorance and hate come into play. It's always a hard thing to accept, but this isn't the first time something like this has happened: a kid/teen is shunned by everyone, including their own family, just for being different. There's always gonna be that one person who can't seem to understand that they're are different people, in terms of almost everything, and the first thing they do is hate that person for being different. Is there a way to try and stop this? It's not permanent, but the best way to combat ignorance is knowledge. Learning and understanding is one of the best things you can do for yourself. You are given the tools to teach yourself and others how to go through life learning about everything,or in the very least, just as much as you possibly can. Religion is no exception and you want to know what's the number one thing that religion teaches you?

Be a good person and don't be a complete ass.

It is one of the most obvious, most easiest thing to learn from religion and yet some people either ignore it or, like a majority of the passages from the bible, they twist and turn it all around to their own demented liking. Just like corey's "family" did.

The best thing that came from this story is, not only did his horrendous family get exposed for the sociopathic bigots that they are, but most importantly, he finally has a new family that can love him for what he is and a place he can now call home. Here's to corey leading much happier life and as for the nichol's, well when one of them said that they hope karma comes corey's way, well i can only hope that happens to them at some point in their lives, but what do i know? I'm not as pants on head nutty as them.

An intro

Welcome to my blog. A not so magical place where i talk about what ever pops into my dirge of a wasteland known as my mind and i unleash it to the public, whether people want it or not. Expect the following: reviews, opinions, rants, observations, and lots and lots of dumb shit. Enjoy, you poor fools.